EVERYTHING&NOTHING

Family Divided

2011-10-12T18:38:00.002-07:00

My family are the most important people in my life. I love them and want and need their approval (can't really understand why) I live my life as my own but at the same time i'm tethered by them in ways i need a therapist to decipher and i'm only a cook! my family is in some ways very close and far a part we love each other but our egos, dramas and self Independence collide constantly. We don't talk about the big things we gloss over them and pretend nothing exist when in fact there is a world of importance to discuss! I'm not a big talker of feelings ; but FUCK, I WISH SOMEONE WOULD AT LEAST ASK A FUCKING QUESTION!

Beautiful Crescent Moon Tonight...

2011-10-02T23:03:00.001-07:00

The meaning...no idea!

Real Talk..When I realized I was Gay.

2010-10-25T20:52:00.003-07:00

When I was growing up I was a tomboy running around with my boy cousins doing ruff things scaring myself up, it was fun and I was in my element.I had little crushes on boys, but when I look back it was more going with the flow of heterosexuality than anything more. At the same time however; I loved reading and writing short stories or acting out plays alone in my room by myself; Why by myself you ask, well because i always put myself in the male roles. I was the strong hero who save the girl, loved the girl, kissed the girl and at times fucked the girl to a very satisfying conclusion, this is how my huge ego started and blossomed..I was amazing and everything I did caused the women shakes and palpitations-ERGO EGO! Let's stop though because I'm in transgression land, annnyway-I couldn't really share that with the world even if i still didn't get it..right? Okay, I was writing a short story one summer day. I remember because I was fifteen (late bloomer yes!) on summer break from school, I was hiding out from then boyfriend because he was constantly annoying me with wanting to make out ALL OF THE TIME, the boy was such a boy! (I have nothing against boys/men..there cool as friends. Really!)I wanted a little alone time for me and my brain. ( i came to find out even girls gets annoyed with her girl not paying attention to her..maybe I'm a big douche guy after all.)Okay forget about my lapse in concentration, I was writing and at a point where the hunky male lead (ME!) was about to kiss the sexy femme fatal (totally my type even in my head btw!) I stopped writing and froze, a certain and surety came to me and i felt a chill go up my back. To this day i have never felt such a leap in my heart or a time when it actually felt as if it was not beating. The fear and the exhilaration was like a rush and let down at the same time. I saw my family hating me, I saw none of my children being born, I saw ME never ever being real or truthful with anyone because this was not good in the world eyes. Being me I shut down that part of me and ignored it. Over the years "THE GAY" seeped out(My lame label for who i am or was) and I gave in but I always,always shut back down.The fear had me denying me and over the years i have made myself feel wrong or bad out of that fear.The reason I'm writing this is to say I am now 34 years old. I HAVE LIVED THROUGH THE SHAME AND THE CLOSET! I'm done, this is my life i need to take hold of it. I lost a very important family member these past few weeks and it was the hardest thing I ever had to do,I thought it was gonna be coming out; but it wasn't! When I finally came out to my family, I was told this all across the board " I KNEW.I WAS WAITING FOR YOU TO TELL ME". I Put all of this importance and effort in hurting myself for NOTHING..THEY KNEW AND WAS WAITING FOR ME TO BE COMFORTABLE WITH TELLING THEM!!!(GO FUCKIN FIGURE!)It's never as bad as you think! I'm not a person who let's herself cry, but I have been the biggest cry baby lately and I let the tears fall and not be afraid because it took time to get here; but I'm HERE! Alive and Well, much BETTER for the road I had to take. I think of these kids who are killing themselves thinking nothing and no one will make this right or will accept them for them, I'm here to tell you..hold on and hold tight life always has a special window to look through. Maybe your family or loved ones won't except you as mine had, I was beautifully lucky. You just have to trust in what ever higher power YOU hold true and know that life has many twist and turns on your road,going straight is not always the only option!

I'M OUT

Glee, Brit and Santana ,feelings so far..

2010-10-13T21:57:00.006-07:00

These two are the cutest..the scissor sisters. Hahaha notice my show of amazing humour there, it's okay if u didn't laugh i did...that's all that matters.

I love this show brief comments on season so far and Go-
Finn and Rachel adorable,don't care what the lame sites say.
Mercedes needs more screen time.
Quin is so FUCKING HOT! Can't blame Sam for wanting her to
shades those eyes are like little erotic sex lasers..yes I'm
laughing at my own joke again.
Kurt-needs some boy lovin get that dude another dude for heavens sake!
Mike and Tina uhm their okay
Puck and Artie, I think Puck is like barley on the show this season so-
arrrrrg Artie, okay I'm gonna just say dude you had sex for the first
time with a hot cheerleader and you get mad at Her, WTF!

Okay finale Brit and Santana rocking my world when did those two get so
good? must be all the lady kisses.

I'm Out!

New way of thinking!

2010-06-06T08:54:00.003-07:00

I have decided to think positive when it comes to love no more doubts or misconceptions I'm gonna be real dam it!!!

New Girl Crush...Well Two??

2010-04-20T22:15:00.005-07:00

So i have this extremely adorable manager(yes she's straight as fuck!) I know ladies i know straight girl crushes never goes any where and if it does it turns out pretty sucky. but the thing is I'm not looking for it to go any where i am enjoying the flirting and starting up pointless conversations just to hear her voice(my part) the slight arm touching(on her part) the soft laughing and eyes focusing where they shouldn't(we both do that)it's fun and won't lead to love or marriage(not with each other anyway) it's just a simple work place crush...Right?

Now second crush has great potential to go far if i could just take my head out of my ass long enough to get over myself and actually talk to her.You see people when i really like a girl i shut down and avoid her at all cost until i work up the nerve to see what's happening or will happen I'm LIKE A 12 YEAR OLD BOY ASKING OUT HIS FIRST WET DREAM ! Yeah it's not good, but very funny-if you are not ME! That's me lame and single looking for the courage to talk to the very pretty girl i see on the bus everyday...(deep sigh as i wipe away my non existing tear).It will be if it is to be.

This Is What I Want From My True Love....

2009-09-06T02:32:00.004-07:00

SCARED YET??????

I want a woman who don't care if I have a car or not.(and don't want one)

I want a woman with different kinds of humor..aka likes weird SHIT!

I want a woman who don't mind that I personally hate jewelery but would gladly buy her some if she wants it.

I want a woman who don't need to constantly..talk..every..single..minute..of ..the..freak'in....DAY!

I want a woman who likes sex and is not afraid of being intimate...as in cuddling or spooning(and then having sex again)

I want a woman who respects my style and what I do with my wardrobe( still look fly as hell!! what???)and don't attempt to change a sista ya know!

I want a woman who the fuck loves the fact that I don't like to go out and party. I like my own house that I pay the bills for, that I work hard to stay in. I'll be happy to meet your family and friends(both ways and my family fly as hell), but we don't need to spend every waking moment with them sweetie...wink, wink, wink; have my oh so subtle hint been dropped properly and effortlessly?

I still like to go out (occasionally) and party but, for the most part I want to stay home with my lady love and enjoy US.. yes motherfucker, US. That's not alien information; that's life. Many people like staying home with the people they want to stay home with . That don't make them different or wrong or just plain fucked up,or dare I say BORING.... WHAT? This makes us normal people who loves being with our loves and not feeling the need to party with the whole world when we just want to be with YOU. If you don't :well that sounds like your problem....... NOT MINE!!!!

I'M OUT!
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It Has Been A Long Freakin Time.... Uhh???

2009-08-12T23:21:00.003-07:00

Hey my peeps..The peeps that still check this freakin post. I'm- ah sorry yes, I said it young fucks; I'm sorry I have been busy as fuck. Shit cooking up that bacon in a pan for hundreds of thousands is tough fucking working people are hungry...and mean,but those stories I have yet to tell. I miss coming on my form of communicating with the world and spilling my fucking RANT FILLED CRAZINESS- WHY OH WHY have I stopped. Work and relationships will cause a bitch 2 BE Absent, sorry ;)I work hard for my money,so that I can take care of my life style and the way that I want to live it. That being said OMG there is the HOTTEST little sweetie that I am after.So far I don't know her name but eye contact and flirtation has been made SHE WILL BE MINE!!!

Updates coming...

I'M OUT!

YES!!!!! There are Hot Lesbians in the world...DUDE!!!!!!!

2009-02-12T22:29:00.001-08:00

funny uhhhhh?

Obama , All my childern , The L Word.. A Crazy mixer of MESS.

2009-02-01T17:00:00.005-08:00

I'm back by very unpopular demand or should I say NO DEMAND{laughing hysterically i am}I have been extremely busy; okay so my {maybe} regulars know I'm always working striving to be the best and do my best...put food on my table or on my lap as I sit on the couch watching Grey's Anatomy or something. So much stuff has happen of late WE now have a new and capable President who i am hopeful and proud to call my commander in chief{the first black commander in chief...hell yay!} How amazing was that inauguration, I had goose bumps upon goose bumps. My pride in being an American let along an African American was overwhelming and actually caused me to not think of myself for more than an hour that I sat and watched the program for that day...I felt great honor in being an American no matter my color I was an american first.

Now on to the trivial and down right shallow The L Word and All My Children

All my children...WTF? WTF? WTF?
I was so excited to hear that Bianca was coming back and the idea of HOT,Tamara Braun playing her new lover...OH HELL YEAH! I was so there in the beginning that delivered on their promise to have a respectful realistic lesbian relationship{as much as a soap could any how} but now with only like a couple months left with the briefly contracted stars{Eden Rigel and Tamara Braun} they are so royally fucking it up! WTF? How can you bring these to incredible actors on with beautiful, lovely, SEXY, chemistry and fuck it up by adding a strange attraction to a brother in law/baby daddy/WTF? Stupid. Stop Ruining the best Lesbian-NO.The best couple on soaps at the moment for this bullshit. Get it together all my children Bianca deserves better than this shit that you area about to do to her.

The L WORD

Someone killed Jenny...I like jenny and have always thought that Mia Kirshner was a wonderful and talented actresses, she's also hot as fuck! Crazy yes, but hot piece of ass why are you killing off the cool and hot people Eileen are you insane or just plain insensitive to your loyal fans. BOTH;is the answer. that being said I'm loving this new season so far it's funny and sexy and HELLO! Shane and Jenny are finally gonna hook up... off to watch the 3rd ep now>

I'M OUT~

WELCOME MR. PRESIDENT........

2008-11-13T19:41:00.002-08:00

I can't put in print of just how proud I am, so I choose to let the VIDS tell you!

BARACK HUSSEIN OBAMA....is NOW OURS!!!

YEAH!!!!!!

My New HOT SHIT!!!

2008-11-10T17:02:00.000-08:00

LOVE IT I KNOW!!!

....and he's funny too!!!!!!

2008-10-17T20:06:00.001-07:00

MR PRESIDENT YOU CRACK ME UP...

My New HOT SHIT!!!

2008-10-17T19:00:00.002-07:00

CIARAAAAAAAA......

liked that did'nt YOU?

I'm Just Pissed !

2008-09-26T19:38:00.006-07:00

I have been on a completely different sort of mind space of late. I have loved things and people that I thought I would never love and things and people that I have always loved and can't seem to get enough of... WTF? I'm Dealing with it and now will ATTEMPT to give you a bit a my inner insanity.. have fun folks here we go.

Big One

Sarah Palin in some ways I like that McCain chose her as his running mate she's a woman and could possibly be VP of the United States; how awesome, an cool is that? But you see the thing is folks SHE IS SO FUCKING INCOMPETENT It's not even funny funny, it's more sad funny and depressing as fuck FUNNY! I love strong powerful women{hello! I'm a lesbian} but she is ridiculous and scary and not Jason, Micheal Meyers scary this bitch is SAW SCARY. She can possible make bullshit judgments for this country and not be the one PERSONALLY wielding the KNIFE! She COULD CUT YOUR YOUR FUCKING THROAT{sensible way of living} and leave you standing panting wondering what the hell happen...Stand up Obama! Don't be scared of the pit bull wearing lipstick grab the "bull" by the horns and establish your needs and willings to make this great land of the USA the way you know it should be!

TINA FEY YOU MUST BE MY WIFE!

That SNL opener was so awesome I can't even be able to say how I LAUGHED MY FUCKING ASS OFF!{fuck abbreviations}She was on point and on her Tina fey shit! "I can see Russia from my house" favorite line the accent was dead on, but in some ways I felt uncomfortable because my love for Fey made me actually like Palin and her senselessness...I have now found a way to over come it. It's called reality and coming to it seeing Sarah Plain is NOT Tina Fey, and has no such talent of humor and wanting rights for women {rather you believe in it for you or not] or wanting the private rights on people way of leaving their on decisions in someone's else's hands

NOW!

I myself could never abort my own child {I'm saying this never having been raped or a victim of incest or molestation } I'm lucky and blessed...but saying that here's the thing; NO ONE, NO ONE has the RIGHT the make or enforce a WOMAN on what to do with her BODY or her CHOICE. No One should have the power to take that choice from ANY WOMAN. For a woman to be for that and actually want to make someone have a child {her poor daughter!}that could become HARMED in the long run is JUST PLAIN BULLSHIT!

She's not for WOMEN! She's for creating more unwanted children in this world who will be born then possibly left to a life full of abandonment and abuse.

I don't know about you but I am sick of seeing stories about lost children in this world and high and mighty Governor, Senators, Mayors, Congressman or VP and President telling ME or YOU if WE have the right to do what is right for OUR OWN BODIES!

and to prove that I'm am not as crazy ASS I just sounded here is my current fav song

Nicole, Nicole, Nicole....DAMMMMMMMMMMMM I WANT TO BE YO' LOVA'!

My New Video!!!!

2008-09-18T22:03:00.002-07:00

HOT!

Another Song from Paramore!

2008-09-18T22:03:00.001-07:00

I LOVE THEM SOOOOOOO!

Schizophrenic Return!!

2008-09-13T15:26:00.004-07:00

HI ALL....YAAAAAAAAAAYYY!!! I have returned after a extremely long time BUT- AGAIN I have been busy. Working hard taking names getting My MONEY! Basically attempting to be an adult...I know I laughed at that too. I am writing this listening to my NEW obsession the song by Katty Perry Hot N Cold awesome freakin song...it's on repeat people I'm all hyped and shit. I feel happy to be able to actually sit down and express my self today because fuck, have I been pinned up with all the shit that has been going on lately. HOLD ON TO YOUR SEATS BECAUSE I AM ABOUT TO BLOW!

1ST

How awesome was OBama's Speech so intense and inspiring. The entire Democratic Convention gave me chills and made me hope and WISH for new and beautiful things, that will develop in the world: so wonderful and on point.

McCain choose a Chick and not a good chick, he choose a freakin lame, anti-feminist anti-gay, anti- fucking choice no body from the middle of fucking nowhere...WTF???
Hilary Clinton ran an excellent campaign with intelligence and RESPECT for her fellow PERSON. Her goal was to include ALL and bring the poor and the rich together as ONE in a sensible plan. But they cut her down and made her the VILLIAN when OBAMA danced onto the yellow brick road with Michelle and Biden- but now for McCain to INSULT the women of America by placing this ,I'm sorry, scary ass elitess Governor for Alaska and put her in front as if to say "hey! everyone Hilary didn't quite make the cut -but this HOT Tina fey look alike will take her place for you. WTF?"

SCREW YOU JOHN MCCAIN AND THIS SARAH PALIN WHO CAN'T ANSWER A DIRECT QUESTION!

I'm sorry people for this RAGE that I am expressing but COME ON; this women could possible be our president. John Mccain is freakin ancient and the press seems to be falling COMPLETELY in love with this women who could be the next president close to respond to a hellish 9/11{GOD FORBBID}

Why, Why, Why Obama, didn't you stand up and had been a MAN without an EGO and CHOOSE Hilary Clinton as your running MATE? Biden's cool and all ,but Hilary would have ROCKED more than the amazing speech that she gave at the democratic convention WE would have a OBAMA/CLINTON ticket...AGGGGGG WHY DO MAN HAVE TO BE SO FUCKING INSECRURE!

That said as I calm down and come back down to earth.The reality is OBAMA/BIDEN MCCAIN/PALIN. I'm for OBAMA/BIDEN all the way. My dream ticket didn't come to life but what we have is and extremely smart and intelligent man running along with another extremely intelligent man and both are willing to clean up this MESS that the REPUBLICANTS have made for nearly eight years.

I think they will make a better change than an old dude under Bush's policy's and a lady who actually answered when asked if she would be the new VP candidate" what exactly does a VP do any way" Yeah the people needs her a heart beat away from the button...Hilary she is NOT!

A little lighter...

The MTV awards WHY ALL THE LIPSYNCING-that sucked ASS!
The new 90210, WTF? NO! Even with Jenny Garth and Shannon Dorethy, NO!!
The new Pink song Rocks my ASS OFF.

HOT! HOT! HOT! HOT! HOT! HOT! HOT! HOT! HOT! HOT! HOT! HOT! HOT! HOT! HOT!

I love that SONG!!!

Life is Special..

working hard but the ladies are coming at me though. For the first time in my life the women seem to really..uhmmmm enjoy my presents. So many are coming at me, I don't know how to play it. I'm single but I only feel for one, I like ONE! SHOULD I IGNORE THE OTHERS AND FOCUS on the ONE. My friends say yes-but here's the thing, what if that ONE is not THE ONE what if ONE of the other girls are. Will I be pushing them away for the good or the bad. Work place romances SUCK!!!!

I'm out...

My New Video!!!!

2008-08-28T17:59:00.001-07:00

the oringinal BELOW....

I am SO In LOVE with this BAND!!!

2008-08-28T17:33:00.001-07:00

and this song is my favorite...

HOW HOttttt???

Ode To Christina Aguilera.

2008-08-07T19:52:00.004-07:00

The first time I heard this Amazing voice I thought "cool song"

Then I saw the "What a girl wants" video and my ears began to prickle a bit. Hey! Wait a minute this girl can sing a little THEN I saw this.

I can still remember sitting at home watching and thinking "why in the hell is Britney getting all of the attention, CHRISTINA ROCKS!! She most definitely did and does rock but still; to this day, she does not get the props she deserve in and from this business. It"s all about the crazy and sadly; a touche of the disturbed that makes the head lines. Christina's talent has always impressed me even though she does go for more of the provocative

That's just freakin HOTTTTTTTT!!!

But I'm getting distracted.....AnyWhoooooo!!

She has a voice that would kick Yo Ass! She has collaborated with any everyone.

Redman
P.Diddy
Nelly
Tony Bennett
Herbie Hancock
Alicia Keys
Missy Elliot
Linda Perry and many more that I can't remember off the top of my head at the moment.

This is my fav of the Linda perry song written for Christina

another hot one...

and this

HOTTNESS!!!

The woman has this most BEAUTIFUL voice and doesn't receive the accolades of her fellow; less talent counter parts,Why is that? Why is it that Miss Christina Aguilera doesn't get her props the way she deserve.... I don't know people. You tell me.

Lovely after having her child.

I'm all over the place tonight......just go with it!

I'M OUT!

" The right person will still think the sun shines out your ass"

2008-07-26T17:51:00.005-07:00

What is that title line about you ask and my answer is "JUNO" I know I know I know I am waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaay behind on this movie and the buzz it started months ago. I was busy and living under my woman made rock, but I am here now to say what an incredible freakin film. I loved it and Ellen Page is my NEW crush that makes me feel kinda dirty thinking of her in a sexual way(she is OF AGE in real life folks)

These kinds of movies are my favorite small and full of beautiful goodness and WTF! J Garner graces the piece (Sidney bristow anyone?)

As I was saying the movie is truly wonderful and my favorite quote comes from J.K Simmons AKA Mac MacGuff in the film.

"Look, in my opinion the best thing you can do is find a person who loves YOU for exactly what YOU are,good mood, bad mood, ugly, pretty, handsome, what have you. The right person will still think the SUN SHINES OUT YOUR ASS"

How Freakin awesome is that?

How Cool Is THIS????

2008-07-09T13:31:00.001-07:00

Me, Myself; would have did her first...But of course I'm just a HORNY LITTLE BIRD!

Ding Dong The Douche-Bag Is Gone!!!!!

2008-07-04T07:20:00.009-07:00

This Hottie...

Was just waaaaaaaaaay to much for "David Silver".

The beauty came to her senses and realized "hey I'm smokin, why am I marrying some dude who is, like a thousand years older than me...I could do SO MUCH better!

Yes baby you can. How about an always working chef, who really wouldn't be around much but would do you right when she was awoke and not bone tried all the time. Come on you know I sound like a catch...hit me up a email miss Megan Fox, I dare you!

The next best thing, if I can't HIT IT. Would be for Angelina to introduce her to the lovely ways a woman can love another woman. I mean when she pop out the twins!

Can you imagine this...

AND THIS!!!!

Fuuuuuuuuuuuuuck YEEEEEEEEEAAAAAAAHHHHHHH!!!!

check out my fantasy hook ups for a more detailed show of my pervy ways.

I'M OUT.

Like The Finest Of Wines Alanis Gets BETTER!!!

2008-06-19T17:37:00.005-07:00

When I first discovered this amazing women I was a young girl fascinated with the talent that I saw on my TV screen the unabashed freedom she displayed while performing her songs the beautiful abandonment was just...sexy as hell!

I love Alanis Morissette and the music she puts out. She's a natural in my opinion and down right sings like the lovely guiness she is. I played jagged little pill so often I thought my CD would scratch and disintegrate(YES NO IPOD AT THE TIME>>>PEOPLE)
she"s smart and writes her OWN SHIT! Alanis is her on women who turns her present pain into her next Grammy Award. I love her, So when I heard that she had another CD out I made it a goal to get it..folks it's stop and listen, GOOD! If you love "Jagged" this one will ROCK YO ASS, the quirky lyrics and unusual music behind it the wonderful Alanis from her "jagged" days(not saying that her records since jagged has not been amazing) what I'm saying is that the passion I saw in this performance at the 1996 Grammys is back!

That same intensity is back; but in a more grown up kinda way, a more I felt that, I've gone though that, now I'm better kinda of way. I now listen to "Flavors of entanglement" as I Write this, the song "Madness" is currently playing, this song makes you feel and think about things that maybe the song isn't even about, it's just that good! All the songs on the new CD is quiet Wonderful...this one brought my attention to Alanis being back to her "Jagged" form.

No other music or video is no longer as relevant and holds as much substance as this CD does. Other songs that perked my little ears were straitjacket, limbo no more, on the tequila(which seemed quite an departure from the normal) and my ABSULOUTE FAVORITE "Torch"

Alanis turns her break ups and changing life experiences into HELLIFIED!!! terrific music...and the fact that she has admitted to experimenting with lesbianism has nothing to do with it. I FUCKING PROMISE!!!!

Lil Wayne may sell more but Alanis shows that brilliance is TIMELESS.

THE LOWEST FORM OF DIRT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2008-06-14T18:02:00.008-07:00

NOT GUILTY....

My ASS, This guy is SOOOO Disgusting how could the people let him off. I am very DISAPPOINTED by the CHICAGO LEGAL SYSTEM I am born and RAISED in this great city that is My home and I HATE That he is a Native ....YUCK!

I AM GOING TO VOMIT NOW, FUCK!

My idea of the verdict SHOULD have been.......

R KELLY IS NASTY!!!!!!!

HIS MUSIC IS DEAD AND SUCKS ASSSSSSSSSS!!!!!

Sooooooooooooo!!!!!!! Out of the WEB LOOP!!!!

2008-05-22T20:31:00.002-07:00

All my working and actually having a life outside of the web has made me LOST. I feel stupid as I troll my fav sites and do not know what is going on. What do I do? I REALLY need to focus on my friends....I DON'T KNOW THE LATEST NEWS! WORK SUCKS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

BUT I DO LOVE FINALLY SEEING WHAT KC,ELKA SLO AND OMFFFFG!!! GREEN IS HOT!!

If you read my blog you know I love DARK HAIRED GREEN EYED GIRLS. GOOD STUFF!!!

Such Good Memories With This ONE.....

2008-05-21T18:27:00.001-07:00

Missing You - Brandy, Tamia, Gladys Knight & Chaka Khan

Season Finales...

2008-05-17T21:43:00.002-07:00

Bones...OMFG!!
Grey's Anatomy...OMFG!!!
Brothers and Sister...OMFG!!!
Ghost Whisper...OMFG!!
and of course.................

LOST OMFG!!!!!!!...............

can't FUCKING WAIT!!!!!!!!!

WTF?

I LOVE TELEVISION!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Last Legal Drug..

2008-05-16T08:52:00.001-07:00

Shane is my Drug!

So GAY

2008-04-19T18:57:00.003-07:00

The title of my post describes me so very well|; Yes, I am Sooooooooooooooooooo Very Gay! I knew I was gay when I was fifteen(I know kinda late) it took me that long because I wouldn't let myself SEE IT. I wrote short stories about men and women falling in love, it took me a while to understand that I was seeing myself in the MALE parts...I'm not butch, I'm some what girlie, but when I wrote these stories I WAS THE MALE. At one point when I was fifteen and I remember it vividly, my pen stopped and I paused for a long time, my past poetry and short stories came rushing back to me, years worth of it. I started to cry, maybe a handful of times that I have actually let myself go enough to feel a feeling and not be afraid of what it meant. I knew what it meant. I was gay! I liked girls...I am gay! This proved to shape my life with men and with women because for a while, even though I knew I was gay I kept it to myself, not telling anyone and continued dating men. That soon became tedious and down right dishonest to the poor guys who wanted to become serious with me. So I began dating women secretly only telling a couple of friends, never my family. Now I'M 33 DYSFUNCTIONAL with women; when I feel they are getting to close, so that I would actually have to come out to my family. I shut them out and hide, I ruin my relationships because I am to afraid to let my family know who I truly am. It's pitiful I know...but that is where I am right now.

MY NEW VIDEO!!!!

2008-04-17T09:34:00.001-07:00

Tell me what you think...

Random Blog Ideas Without Reason

2008-04-14T08:29:00.004-07:00

ME- Always a good Topic in my opinion!

Food- I know it well it's all I see all day I even dream about it sometimes there is
hot chicks and whip cream in the mix.

SEX- This foreign language is confusing.

Books- Does Erotica and Porn count?

Music- PitBull, Alicia Keys, Tegan and Sara, Prince...My IPOD would fascinate you I
SWEAR!

Relationships- There is that foreign language again; How can you have a relationship
when you are a "selfish Bitch", Ex-girlfriend speak.

WORK- "A LOT OF IT" Not enough play, is making me a lame, lame, dull young lassy but hey my sarcasm and morbid sense of humour is still in tact...YAY ME!

KC AND ELKA T-SHIRT- Just recently received mine in the mail coolest shirt EVER and very comfy(is that a word and if so did I spell it correctly?)

New Obsession #1- Prince song "Darling Nikki" is like permanently in my head, I sing it constantly. I don't know why, maybe because it's so dirty with a
touch of perversion...in other words, it speaks to my CORE VALUES.

New Obsession #2- Puccini for Beginners, I watch it every night when I come home
from work and sometimes before I leave for work. I find it quirky
and delightful. It also has Julianne Nicholson and her freckles in
it. I'm not usually a freckles girl but I enjoy her.

New Crushes- I'm getting a vibe from one Beautiful girl but I'm not really going there until I work on my BAGGAGE!

I'M OUT

WARNING DRUNKEN WRITER ONLINE....

2008-04-05T22:20:00.003-07:00

Okay yes I am DRUNK RIGHT NOW(no work tommorrow I have deceided to post a question to the people all miss spell and crap and all so here it is what kind of a drunk are you

happy drunk
mean drunk

do you become an evil asshole >>>>or
THE HAPPEST HAPPEST drunk person on earth

please commment on this ansewr if you land on this page

I need to know because I am what is known as a happy drunk I laugh tell old jokes and is sort of self depricating being drunk allows me to leave my tight self control That I have on myself and ocassionally have some fun > TONIGHT i HAD FUN< NO CORRECTIONS NO CHECKING MY WORK . I had fun tonight.

i'm out....

L WORD Quick Hits

2008-03-26T18:08:00.008-07:00

Yes I'm back with my insightful and completely relevant way of seeing this incomparable show and the beautiful ladies in it...but before I start I am going to have to jump the gun here a bit, to say what I have been saying all along. THEY SHOULD JUST FUCK ALREADY! Who? do you ask{HINT PIC ABOVE} Well how about miss Schecter and miss McCutcheon. If they do not end up together in the 6th season I will-uhm I don't really know yet but manipulative and scheming things will occur(Way badder than that Adelle shit!)

As I am writing this imagine Tegan and Sara and Maxwell is the soundtrack(NOT EXPLAINING!)

512

How many times do you think that kid has heard loud profanity and obnoxious Honking from momma B?

WAIT! Is this Grey's Anatomy...oh nah, just a regular occurrence of a roof top helicopter landing on the l word(cool though)

Shane's BACK IS AWESOME!!!!!

Leisha is wearing her girlfriends EXTREMELY expensive clothes.

A few times humping Shane and Molly starts dressing all "gay and stuff"

Adele totally kicked Tina off the set because she knew Tina would not have allowed the whole "surprise ending" bullshit!. Come on Jessie is so gay people have you seen the "pilot" screw you Erin with your whole "Jessie never felt gay" crap-hello look at jenny you've met her; it's her life story(in case you haven't notice) she's been fucking your lead actress the entire shoot, how gay does that feel, asshole!

What is with this dressing a like. first Bette and Jody now Alice and miss can't speak up. I don't like this whole thing. Why would Alice want anyone else other than Tasha; I mean, sure their going through a few things now but come on Alice give the girl time to find herself again before you go and say it's not working. Her life just freakin blew up because of you! Work that shit out Miss Pieszecki!

I like how when Bette and Tina are kissing, how Bette caresses her hand inside Tina shirt...SWEEEEEET- BUT COME ON, ANOTHER BABY! Have they not remembered the main reason why they broke up in the first place...WHY!!!! bring more presser on new found LOVE?

How in the hell did Jody get all the surveillance, WTF? Does she know Mark or something?

Jenny was like GROPING Shane when Molly was right there(was I the only one who noticed the Territorial grabbing from jenny?)

Phillis SUCKS and Shane SUCKS for letting her get in her head.

Bette wants a valet ticket BAD! as soon as they pull up she jumps out the car and is like TICKET! TICKET! WHERE IS THE TICKET...FUNNY!
Adele and Begonia STOOOOOOOP!!!

Tina leading Bette on to the dance flour was all like ;Hell Yeah! this is MINE BITCHES, hands off, her cheating days are over(we hope)okay a lot of things happened in this small window of a scene.

:The girls playing Bette and Tina looking on in AWE.
:The gang talking about how much the two belong together.
:Sam; Tina NOT A CHANCE love interest, is dancing near and Adele and begonia's ALL kinds of WRONG touching is going on...My One and ONLY eye catching moment was a getting there drunk Cammy turning up a bottle getting BLASTED!!

I laughed my frakin head off and re-winded that time and time again some-one's in DENIAL of something(did you see how she was all on Tasha?)

Kate's EYES OMFG!

Adele slapped Jenny on the back-UHHHHH Don't touch her crazy lady(I mean Adele not Jenny)

Jenny and Bette HUG ,now Together AWWWWWWWWWWWWW!

SHANE SHANE SHANE SHANE SHANE...WTF! WITH NIKKI REALLY, SHANE REALLY!

The last scene actually and I promise you brought tears to my eyes. I'm not a cryier I DIDN'T EVEN CRY WHEN DANA DIED and that hurt like hell. But Jenny looking at Shane and saying that she broke her heart I felt like OH SHIT! YES I KNOW Jenny has been causing all kinds of trouble for a long while now but she has always had Shane's loyalty and respect she had to have felt Shane's betrayal SO deeply hell I did.

I have always been in love with Mia Kirshner's eyes. The last scene of ep12 reminded of why....

I have been a loyal viewer since the premiere of this show, that told ME yes! There is women out there like you, who are lesbians and who don't exactly conform to "the normal" I'm not to different I'm not weird or BAD I'm like any other lesbian girl who realized she was gay and didn't know exactly what to do with that. With this show and the wonderful things that came after it has shown ME that YEH! I WILL BE JUST FINE...THANKS IC!

I'M OUT!!!

L WORD QUICK HITS....

2008-03-20T15:55:00.012-07:00

All I can say is SORRY!

I'm a little fucker and should be raised up and displayed naked in public for not keeping up with this crazy blog of MINE. Things has been so fucked for me and time is not my friend, a lot of things hasn't been my friend of late but hell I found the time now to do a little catch up before the season finale'...BTFW!! SEASON 6 HELL YEAH!! so happy and sorta wet, at the thought of another season(even if it is abbreviated)
let's get to it shall we...

505

when jenny screamed for Adele I liked how Shane shut her up with a tap on the head, Shane's pimp hand is strong!

How hot does J Beals and Laurel flirt with just their eyes Niiiiice, I felt something!
the actress playing bette is crap. I would have preferred Mary fucking Poppins

Dawn denbo totally met jenny at the opening of her club("some director at the door wants to use SheBar in her movie")WTF!

Tina, Shane, Alice , I want to dance with you to a J5 SONG!

In Jenny's little reenactment with Nikki, I had one thought and one thought only...Jenny and Nikki didn't get to PEE; the whole point of both women standing in that freakin party line was to PEE. Marina jumped jenny in the pilot and jenny jumped Nikki in this ep THEY DIDN'T GET TO PEE!

506

Mia Krishner I'm going to have to FUCK YOU- because you are phenomenal this season.
you can be my SEX COACH anytime!

The scene with Bette and Tina was smokin but I can't help but focus on when Tina kicked off her pants and Bette's, like jerky weird movement to that. it was funny to ME!

Jenny saying she hates Canada when Mia the person is from Canada...AGAIN it was funny to ME!

Angelica sees "puppies" tough Shane jumps up on a chair and Alice actually has the presents of mind to grab up the TODDLER!

I like how Jenny was making Adele smell the rosemary

Jenny's little dance/walk up to Dawn and her protesters was well; adorable.

507

In the deleted scene we found out that Nikki TOTALLY cares about the earth.

Bette slaps Jody on the head...J Baals also does comedy

Begonia giving Shane a flirtatious side ways look. their waisting Miss Patricia Velasquez. She's playing karina for pete's sake give her more to do!

sorta on topic...cool pic of the real Karina Lombard

the sheet was like glued to mia ASS

Molly's grumpiness is sexy. Work for that PUSSY, Shane.

Tina is Hawt when she's crushing and lose her cool

Kate Moennig, the actress seems to really like it when Mia strips off her jacket and shake her hips.(just FUCK ALREADY!!!!!!!!!!!!)

How in the hell is Nikki so in the closet when she is kissing her director of a well publicised film, in a lesbian club rolling around in oil. She didn't need Alice to out HER she's doing it all her DAMMMMMMMMED- self!

508

Nikki is a lame Angelina Jolie...doesn't compare at all. Mr and Mrs Smith my ARSE!

The messier Shane is the hotter Shane is!

How freaking GAY is Kelly McGillis in this role PUUUUUUULEEEEEEZZZZZZZZZZZZZE!

Have I mention how I am gonna have to fuck Mia? She rules over the agent, awesome indeed! Seriously I HAVE TO HAVE HER NOW!

Begonia still looks like she wants to DO Shane. Am I the only one noticing the looks? come on.

Bette's hair...enough said!

Miss Clementine seems to reeeeeeeaaallllly know how to kiss another girl, just saying!

509

Tasha's hair is down and she's bangin. Alice looks good sweaty!

Dumb shit actor boy, I just love Jenny saying that

Shane and Jenny should FUCK!

Dawn Denbo's thugs patting jenny and Shane down and jenny saying EWWWW stop that! in THE most cutest voice EVER!

The lover Cindi dressed up like Michelle Pfeiffer character in Scarface,I rewound the entrance many many times people- it was that LOL funny!

WTF did Kit get out the deal?

"Fuckthatguy" I love molly's tone when she said that...Fuckthatguy! AWESOME!

Bette is gonna take all the air. ADORABLE

SHANE IS NOTHING LIKE A GUY! OF COURSE SHE'S WET YOU MORAN!

SEX SEX SEX SEX SEX SEX SEX SEX SEX SEX- the show freakin Odied on SEX... I love loved every second

510

Jenny caressing Nikki's ponytail, liked it!

I'm still trying to figure out what grade GAY I am, what does that say for my self esteem?

I want to be l word friends. They look like they are having so much fun...until all hell breaks loose

Alice talking to creepy Adele, STOP!

Shane, Molly, Tongue... nough said!

Nikki is a HO and can really work a strap-on.

J Beals, LAUREL AND MARLEE Rocked the reveal scene. I watched this scene over and over again at 2 the fuck o'clock in the morning(when I got off work)the acting was superb, the last part of this was basically done in looks and silence BEAUTIFULLY DONE.

510

JENNY IS A DECENT DIRECTOR I was not surprised. She's loopy, not stupid. Let's be honest people; Jenny makes us all rant at the screen and laugh at her doings but she is not a stupid bitch...she's a smart bitch and SOOOOOO my type SAD FOR ME UHH?

Is this the first time Shane and Tasha has ever had words on screen?

Bette and Tasha stand up in out rage over the news that Double D has bought controlling interest in The Planet....Black girls are scary when angry.(don't be offended peeps I'm a black girl...and I do get angry!)

I like when Jody ask "are you fucking her" and Bette is all like "I don't know who you are talking about" REALLY, REALLY BETTE?

Bette completely lied when she said that she loved JODY no fucking way...she loves Tina she couldn't even stomach kissing her!

Alice and the designer NO! stick it out with Tasha Alice, opposites attract.

Shane and Jenny GET "high" Jenny was so rubbing all on her some Shane...These two needs to FUCK already IC let them get together. I felt it since season one when Shane gave jenny the "wink" in season two when they were on Bette's porch deciding if they would move in together their dysfunction belong together it works. even Bette saw it coming, remember her little chuckle when Shane and Jenny said they were moving in together priceless. LET IT HAPPEN!

In my opinion this is when Jenny realizes that she feels more for Shane than she would have ever thought.

the way that Jenny watched Shane it was as if a realization came to her...see the video below!

I'M OUT UNTIL EP12 SEE YOU SOON......

This made me laugh HARD!!

2008-03-07T09:32:00.002-08:00

I know it makes you feel weird to laugh but you just help it!!!

Tibette Loves, Pains and Cheating Ways!

2008-02-14T18:12:00.005-08:00

My first viewing of this show; which has become my obsession from the month of may to the end of march was maybe, like most lesbians who had not yet seen this type of television in their life time. I was excited with great heart palpitations, at the time jenny and marina was my BIG fascination(come on straight girl being seduced proper by a hot chick I was SO there!) and the first time I laid eyes on miss Moennig FOGETTABOUTIT!! What surprised me though was my instant love for the Bette and Tina's partnership; prefect chemistry, I loved the "going there" aspect to the two women that betrayed the characters...Now four years later I sit at my computer writing in my blog for which let me just be honest, I've been WAY!! to busy to really keep up with (sorry to all my one loyal visitor) but I took the time today, as I listen to Gossip blast on my speakers as a soundtrack to praise the relationship and amazing actresses who has made me a true believer in TIBETTE!

At heart I am a True Sharmen fan, BUT!, silently I've always wanting Bette and Tina together. From the first season the actresses BROUGHT IT, they made a decision to play the part to the best of their ability and that they did....HAWT!!!!

Brief summary:

S1 Bette and Tina in love for about 7 years wanting to have a baby. a few problems a rise and Bette Cheats with the dreaded CARPENTER! Tina finds out, they have kinda stomach; twisting, angry sex and they break up.

S2 Bette is SORRY! She knows she fucked up, and after a couple of times having hot sex with the sexy carpenter; she wants Tina back(although truly Bette never would've left Tina for the hot carpenter anyway...really people WE ALL KNOW THIS) So Tina is now secretly preggers and not telling anyone. She meets Smokin rich lady Helena Peabody and Bette is having meaningless one night stands with young things. BUT Still all that love is there which proves it when Tina CHEATS on Helena with BETTE. They get together and decided to raise there now newborn child together. Happy ending all around, For S2 that is....

S3 Tina out of nowhere and never really explained fully; if you ask me ,starts having thoughts and actually leave Bette for a DUDE, WTF!! Bette has a come on from a senator but doesn't go there because she knows she loves Tina...IMPORATANT FACT I THINK YES!!!!! Bette and Tina even have a moment there were you think Tina will CHEAT on the dude, until she finds out Bette has file for custody of little angelica.

S4 Tina is with THE DUDE, and Bette meets Jody. Attractive artist who happens to be deaf and Tina gets all jealous and starts to turn back to wanting miss Bette's controlling ways BACK, or sexy ways back. Bette stills a sign in great grandeur to win back her lady love Jody; With very pointed words from Jody "don't break my heart" HELLO WHO DID'NT SEE S5 COMING WITH A CERTIAN GLEE!

S5
Bette and Jody is together- but we all know who Bette wants, especially after all the top takin off from NEW AND IMPROVED TINA ( go laurel holloman lookin good baby...not that you always hadn't) looky loos and intense times later they kiss. Way better than any kiss that Bette could ever have with Jody, leads to one of the HAWTEST!! eps of the l word. (Now Bette is doing the cheating but it's with Tina so who cares...come on NO ONE CARED WHEN TINA WAS CHEATING ON HELANA! Who didn't Know she was "seeing other people until Tina ask it of her one time over dinner, less not point fingers) JB and LH proved why there is still message boards filled with questions like "are they really straight" even thought they are both married to man with young children. Crazy chemistry, hot lovin, sexy underwear and tongue action brings all lesbians to exam the scene again and again!!

You really can't help but ask yourself these questions when you see the scene between the two, my uhmm "ears" perked right on up as my eyes were glued to the screen. You can't fight greatness like that for to long...finally IC came to her senses and put the couple BACK RIGHT! or at least I hope so, the season isn't over YET!

TIBETTE HOTNESS..

L WORD Quick Hits

2008-01-28T09:58:00.000-08:00

I'm back with my lame yet simple way of looking at this beauuuuutiful show.

ep 503

Shane's arms are really nice and muscully(is that a word and have I used it correctly)

Jenny can be crazy with out saying a word.

Tina SO doesn't like fake boobs, but kept going on with the lovin because she hadn't gotten laid in like a century. Shit happens!

Grace!!!!!

The clothes that Shane wore in the scenes when she was trying to Meditate was the same exact ones she wore when she and Carmen confronted Max about finding a needle in the bath room in season 3 ep 7.(I swear that is exactly were my mind went to when I first saw it...and the fact that Shane acted as if she was going through DRUG withdrawal)

I think the kiss between Shane and Helena will head in an unexpected direction when she returns. The kiss was weirdly hot.

ep 504

Group scenes I love Especially when the ladies are some what sweaty and various parts are on display. Not to mention some serious Bette and Tina sexual tension going on.

Shane and Jenny looked adorable together. especially at the beginning when Shane caressed jenny's hair...CUTE!

JB wore the red black combo through the entire ep.

Grace looked hot grinding on that chick in Shebar.

Max/Daniela Sea CANNOT dance.

Lover Cindy locked onto Shane the instant she met her. You could Particular hear the porn theme, in surround sound, bleeding from her ears.

Two women married with children and manages to generate THE most longing filled kiss since season 2 ep9. Jennifer Beals, Laurel holloman, I can't wait to see the steamy up coming love scenes. the chemistry is HELLA HOT. I have always been a Sharmen fan but now I'm jumping over to tibette land.

PROOF POSITIVE

MY only problem with this scene is...BETTE CRYING! Why does she always have to cry?

she cried after kissing the carpenter is s1
she cried kissing Tina s2
she cried kissing Jody s4
Now again s5

WTF! Bette, stop with all the crying already. Although I must admit I had a bit of mist in my eyes this time around.

I'm out-

I'm Sorry Did Someone SAY........Hell YEAH!!!!!!!

2008-01-16T18:31:00.000-08:00

With all this Writers Strike BULLSHIT--- don't it makes you miss good TV SHOWS and all the HOT CHICKS THAT STAR IN THEM????? UHH???????????????????

Sarah Michelle should be on Bionic Woman!

L WORD Quick Hits

2008-01-14T17:45:00.000-08:00

Jenny assistant took all kinds of shit from her only to quit when jenny made her look like no one in front of Shane.

Jennifer and Laurel have been hitting the gym hard they look freakin awesome

Mia kirshner has gain a pound or two and I'm loving all of it(nice ass MIA)

Why was Helena wearing blue mascara in prison and how in the hell does Shane, Alice, Tina and Kit just walk past prisoners like that; aren't they separated or something from the population.

Jenny and Shane will hook up this season...I have a feeling.

Rose Rollins breast are phenomenal, I mean Carmen's ASS phenomenal!

We begged and begged for more nudage but MY DAMMMMM- IC those wasn't the titties I hoped for. Helena's was nice though!

Max and Tom, have the writers been watching All My Children? strange hook up 101.

favorite little moment from ep 502

Jenny late at the wedding walking down to - here comes the bride crossing over guest apologizing and knocking a ladies hat off her head and making it worst by plopping it back on with a whispered "sorry" I loved that, made me laugh very hard. I don't no why, I just love Mia's little Ad libs(I think it was an Ad lib)

Biggest dissapointment-

Shane only kissed the MOM and not the Hot Chicks she nailed...WTF!

I'm in love with The L Word again!!!!!

L WORD BLISS!!!!!!!!!

2008-01-06T19:44:00.000-08:00

I loved the EP, thought it was funny, sexy and a great beginning to S5. The ladies were beautiful and showcased their amazing abilities of the past. Kate WAS AWESOME! I've got my hopes up this season...don't let me down L word writers!

Funny and Soooooo Cute!!!!!!

2007-12-22T19:00:00.000-08:00

XMAS,WRITERS STRIKE...Would It Be Wrong???

2007-12-20T17:25:00.000-08:00

Xmas

I like it, it's fun. I get presents. Oh and yeah it's a lovely time that brings family together.

WRITER STRIKE!

IT SUCKS! All my shows are in reruns. What's a hard working gal to do to CHILL?

Would It Be Wrong???

This question was asked of Bette in a very sexy scene in season 4 of the l word. Now, I ask in MYSELF- Conversation in my own head...

I mean; really, how bad is it? Sure there's the whole morality thing and the whole not wanting it to happen to you, but come on seriously it all depends on how HOT the girl is(MY stomach gets all wonky when she enters the room) All things should be measured from 0 to how HOT is the girl(yes I JUST made that up)Examples- say if you had to take a bullet for someone...Paris Hilton, please that bitch will be cold and dead.
Jessica biel, the possible becomes a maybe for her nice ASS alone. Now say, Angelina Jolie... Fuck Yeah! but of course I get to do her after I HEAL and stuff.

Some things makes your religious and moral way of thinking slip away without a trace( like characters on the l word) Lust, and mutual attraction is tumultuous at best. Now I am a civilized person, at times a kind person. I'm also a horny little bull frog. I love women, their beauty, their smiles, their bodies and all the little quirks that makes a woman who she is, this is why I'm a lesbian, DUH!

I've never cheated on anyone in a relationship. OK; once but I was NEW! I've never thought of myself as someone who would break up a happy home; I never thought I'd use words as lame as "happy home". Anyway this long long diatribe is for one reason and one reason only...I WANT TO SEDUCE MY BOSS!

Risky and fucked yes! but oh so true. She's everything I love in a woman, Tall, slim, long black hair, green eyes(good lord green eyes!!) and straight and married or so she says. She sure as hell doesn't act like someone who's straight and married. Bad, Bad road to travel down I know ;I've been there before. I can't help it, I have to have her. I've made up my mind.It's a done deal, game, set, match. I can honestly say that I've never actually seduced any one but when I WANT SOMETHING I usually get it or in this case her. My radar has been pinged!

Would It Be Wrong? Fuck yeah! that's what makes it SO HOT!!

I'M OUT

Long time Long See!!! I'm Still the same BUSY BEE!!

2007-12-10T07:19:00.000-08:00

Hi all, I know I have been away for like a million and 2 years(I exaggarate a lot at times) My life has been busy busy busy. I am a busy little bee. My career is taking off just as I want. This is actually the first time that I like the place that I work and the people that I work with. which is saying something because usually I can't stand most people(I'm cranky at times) While work is speeding ahead and going well my personal life pretty much sucks...my doing, my fault; not only can I be cranky, I can also be quite the clam up type. This "it seems" bothers possible girlfriends when the girl their seeing is not into sharing feeling and talking all hours of the night(I need my sleep) so here I remain single and not caring that much that I am. that's enough about me and why I'm fucked and screwed in the head...Let's move on to The l Word!! HOW EXCITED AM I ABOUT THE 5 SEASON LET ME COUNT THE WAYS!

Shane giving up sex(LOL)
Bette and Tina making eyes at each other(can't wait)
Alice and Tasha rolling around on the floor NAKED!(wet dreams)
Hot as FUCK! Alicia Leigh Willis gettin it on with Shane on the couch(I had a thing for her when she was on General Hospital)
This looks to be an amazing season.

Most importantly there would be NEW kelka podcast to listen to over and over again.

Now just because I want to. I love this pic...

Her hotness transcends race and common sense. the guy in the right hand corner with the gray hair, looks really creepy.

I'M OUT...

Nothing Wrong with being Sexy!!!

2007-11-20T03:47:00.000-08:00

Many Buffy fans had a problem with sarah Michelle Geller posing for Maxim,they were all like-NOOO! Not our beloved Buffy. She's way to good for this. Me, I like it. It's a tastful layout and she's showing she's still got the stuff...GO SARAH!

Sarah, Jessica and The L Word Shakes!!!!!

2007-11-05T14:33:00.000-08:00

How freakin awesome was Sarah Shahi in last weeks ep of "Life"? I knew she had acting chops but dammmmmm, she was off the charts in that ep. GO SARAH! keep up the good work. I tried to find a clip of the ending but couldn't but trust me she was excellent!

Who wouldn't want to grab that ASS!

Last week or so this pic made it's way around the net

I guess all straight girls grope each other in that fashion.
Deny, deny, deny, miss Jessica. NOOOOO; you're not gay at all, not even a little bit!

FINALLY!

It's starting people, I'm feeling anxious and my palms are getting sweaty. Next month I'll begin my ritual by watching all the eps from beginning to last season. You all are there right with aren't you. The L Word sneak peeks and cast behind the scenes are making me crazy. The behind the scene stuff is so worth the spoilers that I hate, but I can't help it. Did you see the last Ourchart post? Kate was sitting on Rose's lap, so cute. I need my L WORD!

even this little promo has me itchin for more, more, more, more, more...

Enjoy your day!

Fantasy Hook-Up

2007-11-05T14:13:00.000-08:00

Those of us who watches the show has seen it! we've all seen the tension the longing looks the impossible to miss chemistry popping off the screen. What am I speaking of you ask uhmmmm Gossip Girl! Has anyone seen the show and think that for sure Serena and Blair will definitely end up TOUCHING BOOBIES! The way the the girls act toward each other is more girlfriend drama than best friend type drama. The creators has to see it, in fact I feel that the two actresses Blake Lively and Leighton Meester are playing up to it a bit. So show writers(when you all get back from the strike) make it happen!

DO you see what I see?

I can't possibly be alone here people.

Should Be A Bigger Star!

2007-11-05T14:06:00.001-08:00

Kristen Chenoweth...She's an amazing singer on the broadway stage and is cute as a button on my NEW favorite show Pushing Daisies. she's been in a handful of films but really made her mark on Broadway, most notably "wicked" excellent! Kristen should be able to pin her own scripts she's so talented. watch her on- pushing daisies she's adorable as hell.

P.D.A Where Do You Fall?

2007-10-30T05:10:00.000-07:00

Where do you fall on the public display of affection scale? Do you do it, do you hate it? I personally hate it. You won't see me jumping on any sofa's, I think things like that should be private and not put out there for everyone to see(not just because i am still semi in the closet) I am a private person and want to keep intimate moments and my love for some one between me and that very- lucky girl; not talking about my feeling for her or anything, but the kissing in front of others or even hand holding makes me uncomfortable. Maybe it's my own insecurities but I find it squirm inducing when the girl I'm seeing needs to express that openly, maybe I'm a prude, maybe it is something I should work on or maybe I am normal in wanting that closeness between me and my special someone. What about you ladies, gentlemen; Are you an love in public or private person? Do you walk down the street with your hand in your lover's back pocket or spontaneously throw your arms around your sweetie to give a big juicy kiss in a crowd; or do you save it for a one on one type romantic setting?

I WANT TO KNOW!

My Self Importance Astounds Even ME!!!

2007-10-22T14:19:00.000-07:00

People Fascinate ME!

From the thick, white girl dressed sassy and owning her sexiness, to the stylish black girl rockin her own uniqueness. All ways of life interest me. I watch to try to figure out who you are and what you are trying to represent.

I watch them on my breaks at work, walking by. Some in their own world; others smiling politely as they pass by, needing a certain amount of contact on a day to day basis. Anything to feel included in something.

Young, old, black, white, Spanish, Asian ,Indian and all other cultures that I can't think of at the moment, I love watching the activities of human reactions to each other and how they carry themselves.
A loud out going gentlemen presiding over his table of friends wanting and needing to be the center of attention; to the quite young woman sitting alone at an table reading a book eating her meal, appearing content in her own company. I wonder if both are truly at ease with their places in life the woman looks to be in a good place yet, the man seems at times awkward and covers up such awkwardness by getting louder and more boisterous!

Strange staring on the train or even weird eye flirting that you aren't even aware you're doing until some dude comes up to you with a "howyoudoin". I know, gross! am I the only one that losers hit on(NO! that says nothing about me. thank you very much)

LIFE Fascinate ME!

Why is it that certain things in life has a way of working out and landing exactly where you are supposed to be and other things are SO Fucked it makes you want to cry from the shear unfairness of it all.

Television Fascinates ME!

Late night insomnia tv KICKS ASS! I caught the coolest movie last night.

Music Fascinates ME!

I Find myself wanting to purchase Britney Spears CD, when it comes out. I mean actually BUY IT! I don't know why.

Porn Fascinate ME!

NEW VIV Thomas release Unfaithful 2 is just hot(I like porn. deal with it!) the two leads in the movie are really into each other and the sex is fuckin insane(I like porn. deal with it!)here's a small clip to prove my point.

start it around the 2:50 mark....

it's a tease I know. it gets SOOOO much better!

Kristin Bell Fascinates ME!

She's on HEROS tonight...can't wait! Hopefully Ali Larter will actually be on for more than 2 mintues this time.

I'M OUT!

I'm Bad and in Serious Need of a Spanking!!!!

2007-10-16T16:38:00.000-07:00

I have been very busy of late and haven't had time to post much(I feel as if I've opened with this line BEFORE!!!)What can I say I'm a hard working little worker BEE!
BTW! caught the L word promo DAMN them for getting me excited this early. How freaking hot does Kate Moennig look for season 5....YUMMY! I Kinda like that Shane the rebel Lothario is back, I love it. what else uhm...Still getting nowhere with the girl at work(because I'm such a GAYMO!)Maybe I should just act as if I am Shane and see what words or lack there of comes out of my mouth, if only I had it in me. Me being the television freak I truly am has a new show to obsessed over...Pushing Daisies! I love this show so much people; it's quirky, delightful and just plain adorable. The leads are also cute as hell together. I love old romance movies where the boy loves the girl in that purely simple sweet non-justgettinginyourpants kinda way. If you haven't seen it please check it out.

I'M OUT!

NOT SEXY!!! BUT FUNNY AS HELL!!!

2007-10-13T17:54:00.000-07:00

Okay I didn't know a song like this existed but when I found this(about 5 minutes ago) I had to share. I love a good ASS just like the next girl, but come on, the line got crossed into kinda gross. OH! Okay, WAAAAAAAAY GROSS...

Gay Girl's Dilemma

2007-10-06T13:03:00.000-07:00

Once again I apologize for not having regular updates, but life happens my peeps!(yes I know I sound lame)so let me begin by simply stating that I have NO GAME, as I have mentioned before in earlier post, I would never have had girlfriends unless my exes hadn't picked me up. That said, There is this girl, No Woman, that I work with who is tasty...yes I just typed tasty!(keep in mind I have NO GAME!) She's sweet, funny, beautiful and has a cool way about her. I'm into her and I feel weird around her; stranger than I've ever felt around any one. What should I do? I'll answer my own question. The advice would be to just be myself, venture to talk to her, get something in common started, sounds about right with the advice I'll get. Heres the thing though, I'm what you call an introvert, If I know you I'm a funny, interesting person. If I just met you I'm quite, closed off even. What do I do? How do I put myself out there? I'm so fucked! ARRRRRRGGGG I'm never gonna get this girl...FUCK ME! I need ADVICE SISTERS!!!!

Being Good Is Just So Bad!!!

2007-10-02T19:42:00.000-07:00

At this time in my life I am very happy and kinda at piece, the new job in my life is flourishing and I feel capable at it, But have you ever noticed that once some parts of your life gets put in place other things seems to fall at the waist. I still love posting but I've just been so tried and exhausted to actually come to the computer and put it down. So much stuff is running around in my brain when will I ever get it out to explain what it is that I am feeling or experiencing. So many funny and frankly hilarious things has taken place on my current job, that I wish to share, I just don't know what to share or what maybe is not as funny as I thought it was at the time(had to be there kinda deal) The women I work with are ridiculous, HOT! is an understatement...what's a nice little gay girl to do.(I'm trying to be good, I swear!)work, work, work,uuuuuuuuuuuuhhhhhhh my simple little life.

enjoy your day.

TV COMA!!

2007-10-01T15:59:00.000-07:00

Finally caught up on my shows, quick run down...

Bionic woman was better than I expected hot chicks fighting is cool, add sexy lesbian like tension "priceless".

private practice, don't know yet, I need to watch another ep to know for sure.

Grey's Anatomy, awesome, I'm really loving the sister character. I'm JUST HAPPY MY SHOW IS BACK.

Las Vegas, Vanessa marcil is still smoking fraking hot.

Life, Sarah Shahi should have a job for a while, it's a good show and I actually paid attention to her co-star. I give it bonus points because not only did we see miss Shahi's side boobage as she crawled out of a one night stands bed but she got near naked and wet in a shower.

The CSI'S were also right on point. Jorja fox still on the show(to bad she still has to pretend to find grissom remotely attractive)

Law and order special victims, Cynthia Nixon was perfect as always and Mariska hargitay is fine as hell(despite the new haircut)

There are other shows I watched but I am reserving judgement until the next eps. All in all good start and seems to be a good crop of shows, my DVR will be getting some serious play over the upcoming months.(I am a tv freak)

haven't watched Dexter yet but I will once I stop typing....

OH YEAH! I heard that Mary Louise Parker adopted a baby.

what the freakin frak, Does every celebrity has to do this now?

Hump Day HoooooRayyyy!!!

2007-09-26T17:44:00.000-07:00

HI all, sorry I haven't posted in a while I've been working like non-stop lately.(trying to fatten up the pay check) Working so much that I am way behind on my TV watching, My DVR is damned near filled up i have to clear out some things. Heros will be first on my list. I'm sorry I don't have much to say at this time but by this weekend I'll have a run down of my work week and the new people in my life. They are like characters on a TV show ,so funny! til then...

Enjoy your day!

What Is It About Me???

2007-09-20T19:17:00.000-07:00

So I'm on the train coming home from work tired and pretty much in my own head as I watch Chicago scenery go by. I began to notice that when there is no one sitting next to me someone always sits down next to me. I know it's two seats, someone will inevitably sit next to me at some point; However what I am saying is that if everyone other person is seated and there is other seats available some one chooses me, why is that? My mind actually try to get to the bottom of my random thought and I began to think who do I chose to sit next to. what specific criteria is needed for me to chose who my seat partner will be ,for a short or long amount of time. Do I go by Color? No, How about if a girl is attractive? definitely not, I'd be nervous through out the entire ride(I have no game The only reason I have ever had girlfriends is because they made the first move.)Male or female doesn't matter...but I did figure it out before I reached my stop(LIGHT BULB MOMENT!) If I think they would SMELL pleasant with NO DISTRUBING ODORS, I sit. I think that is perfectly reasonable of ME!!

Enjoy your Day!!

So Far So Good...

2007-09-19T18:35:00.000-07:00

I'm liking my new place of work, it's faster and crazier(just the way I like it!) the People are hard working and is focused on their responsibilities(again, just the way I like it!) My first day was exciting and challenging, Did I mention that their is already a hot chick giving me the eye? I didn't flirt back because a)I'm not in the most appropriate position to flirt back and b) I'm kinda, sorta, maybe seeing someone. Dating confuses the hell out of me. One minute you're being told you're so amazing and funny, the next minute you're having an argument about, How you don't feel entitled and superior in the world, WTF! She actually said I feel ENTITLEMENT, Oh Yeah! and that I'm at times not opened enough to what she thinks and feels. I barley talk, how do I NOT listen to her, she does all the talking.

Anyway! With the entitlement thing, come on. I feel I've worked hard for the things in my life and I should be a little proud and full of myself, screw her! OOOOOOOOKAY!! I completely went on a serious RANT! I've just been thinking about this for like a week now, chicks can really fuck with your head. This one is a freaking Pro, she's one of those people that argue rationally and articulately. I yell, get frustrated and walk out! Later I know exactly; what I want to say once I sit and think about it(or blog about it) I think to fucking much! But here's the thing; The most important thing, and probably the main reason why I called her on my Lunch hour. She didn't follow me when I walked away, she let me go and sweat it out for two days without calling(she knows how to play it) She's "maintaining " ME!

I think I've met my match.

I'M OUT!

Gearing up for a New Path.

2007-09-18T15:06:00.000-07:00

Well, tomorrow I began the new and exciting job that's been keeping me away from the blog of late(hours of orientation SUCKS ASS!!) I feel happy to experience another beginning and to be able to work at a place were your co-workers aren't horny horn dogs who try to sleep with everything that moves. The new place is more upscale and capable, it's a place I look forward to learning my way around and getting to know my new co-workers. I'll keep you up to date as the days go by.

So I haven't gotten a chance to watch much television but I've been a bit on certain sites and keep hearing things about a "nekkid Spencer" as in south of nowhere, so now I am officially looking forward to Friday!

Missed the EMMYS and I seemed to have not missed anything. A girl at my orientation was telling me that the new Sarah Shahi show is pretty good; I made sure to DVR it(I don't want to see it on YouTube)

Lastly, I'm out of my depression over my Detroit Shock loss. I've let it go...for now.

Okay, I'm gonna go and watch one of the Olsen girls on last nights Weeds.

Enjoy your day!

DETRIOT DID'NT PLAY THE WAY THEY SHOULD HAVE!!!!!!

2007-09-16T16:34:00.000-07:00

Detroit LOST!! They deserved to LOSE! They didn't play hard enough, they didn't do what they needed to do. Certain players DID NOT STEP UP!!! Hopefully next season they get BACK ON TRACK!!

I'M OUT!!!

I'm Sad She's Gone but.....DAMN SHE'S SOOOO HOOOOOOOOTTTT!!!!!!

2007-09-15T19:39:00.000-07:00

Sarah Shahi

How much do you love the fact that she showed MAD loved to us "girls".

It's always Easier wit girls...DUH!!!

Fear and Basketball, with the Detriot Shock!!

2007-09-15T11:47:00.000-07:00

Let me get this out of the way before my head explodes... My Detroit Shock missed an amazing opportunity to close out the series with an historic win. NOW! I am afraid that Phoenix won't miss their chance to be the first team to win on another teams home floor. Just the thought of that sends chills down my spine. How freaking fucked will that be, if the championship team loses on their home floor? I can't think of that it makes my head hurt. It will also be a lot easier for the Mercury considering that Cheryl re-injured her leg Thursday by Deanna Nolan's arrant foot. I have to tell you, I was not the calm, laid back person I usually am watching that game...I was pissed then, pissed on level ten when Nolan past up the finale shot giving the ball to Shannon Johnson, when she missed I SCREAMED so freakin loud my cat ran from the room. I have this fear that they missed their chance in closing out phoenix. just as Sacramento missed their chance in closing out Detroit in last years finale. If they lose this championship I'm going to be SICK!! I know I sound obsessive and irrational but I love this sport so much that I get extremely invested. The Detroit women, isn't probably as upset as I am. I Think this team is talented and just needs to STAY FOCUSED on the task at hand. I pray they have one more in them!

What Detroit needs to do to win.

play hard
defend hard
rebound
score
stop turning the ball over!!!
everyone do their part
katie smith, deanna nolan and swin cash to play their best(wake up swin you're becoming a bench player)

You do all of this, you get back to this...

Okay I know no one from the Detroit Shock organization reads this, but I am going to say it anyway.

GOOD LUCK TOMORROW!!!

Should Be A Bigger Star!

2007-09-12T12:05:00.000-07:00

I haven't done a SBABS post in a while; maybe because I haven't seen anyone one out there who deserves it lately(to much focus on bullshit!) Today the person is my new fascination. She caught my attention and her eyes grabbed me first, I fell kinda, maybe, a little in love, or as much as I could without ever having spoken to the women. She's lovely, sexy smart, and get this surprise! She's an amazing "ACTRESS". She's miss... Vera Farmiga.

Isn't she pretty? I love her and think she will become more known over the next few years. You may have seen her in movies like "Running scared"(she totally took out that freaky married couple who was disgustingly into kids) "The Department" she and Leonardo DiCaprio were intense (my weird fascination with Leo continues)Thinking back she's been in a lot of things that I've liked but she didn't jump out at me at the time. Now, she is on my radar, mark my words Vera Farmiga will be nominated or win an Oscar one day. You read it here first.

Vera Farmiga

Enjoy your day!

Hey! Mr DJ play my freaakin Song!!!!

2007-09-10T12:44:00.000-07:00

When the liquor is unlimited and the music is rockin your shit, these are the things you scream at the DJ, play{insert song here} DJ this shit is lame play {insert song here}WTF! That song is crap play{insert song here} I'm not as obnoxious as I sound. I just love music, especially at parties. My point is that certain songs, you just have to hear when you are drinking. Certain songs that make you sing alone or dance as if you are in your own world. Some songs you make yours and you have to hear when that Vodka and Cranberry is circling the brain. These are a few of mine... I was drunk when I made this video.

Online Videos by Veoh.com

There is no explaining what get the feet MOVING!

Hi, I'm sls and I am a COVETER!!!!!

2007-09-07T13:04:00.000-07:00

I admit it I am a COVETER, I am a coveter for shallow; material things such as; phones, computers, ipods ,clothing, whatever it maybe. Which means even if I have the most up to date equipment ,if someone would to show me that they have the latest improved version it has to become Mine, Mine, Mine! Case and point the IPHONE(yes, I do regret that one) I heard from a friend that he was getting it and for no known reason I craved and moved heaven and earth to get the extremely expensive headache ridden device(I can't begin to tell you about the complaints I have about that damn thing) I want, I get! That is what runs through me, My impulse's are beyond my control, it's a terrible flaw and I promise I am working on the problem. Maybe it's because I am an only child and was spoiled to my very core(great possibility)or maybe it's because in the world we live in today, it's all about who has what and how much more they can get than the other person. We're a spoiled nation; it's shitty, but true. I'm making myself sound very lame and artificial, I promise I am not I just can admit a part of myself that I don't like very much and would like fix, I'm being truthful.

What part of yourself don't you like or would like to work on and eradicate?

Enjoy your Friday.

Hot Lesbian Action Always Seems To Translate

2007-09-06T06:11:00.000-07:00

A couple of months ago while surfing YOUTUBE once again, I came across this awesome show about two lesbians in love(not that hot lesbians is anything new on youtube) The thing with this show is that it's in Spanish. I can't freakin understand one word but it did not stop me from watching every clip that involved the two female leads in the show that were falling in love. There's many characters in the huge ER type doctor show but my focus was on Maca, the very attractive pediatrician and Esther the nurse(wait porn music is playing in my head...OKAY) Anyway they fall in love, get married, Maca has a baby. Esther cheats with some lame dude, maca finds out, is angry, they break up. After a while Maca forgives Esther(I don't know how) then finds out Esther is pregnant with the lame dudes baby. Esther has the kid but there's something wrong with it and Esther needs to have another baby to save the baby. They go ask lame dude for more sperm, he agrees, end of season 13. Now season 14 has began as of yesterday with Esther very pregnant again and the two ladies still in love...but this time around Maca has found herself a little something on the side. I don't condone cheating but if you have to, Maca has chosen the perfect sinful body to fall unto. The chick is so smokin it's a sin in it's self. As I said I can't understand a word but I get it, Hello! hot girls totally making out what more can you ask for.

Maca and Veronica in supply closet take it to about 1:52...

If that doesn't translate, I don't think you are a very good LESBIAN!

to catch up on the eps go to Youtube 1creation season 8-14. You won't be disappointed, it will be even better if you know Spanish.

Enjoy your day!

Who else thinks he will have a excellent Coming "OUT" story in about ten years from now....

2007-09-05T12:26:00.000-07:00

and she will be falling "OUT" every ten seconds in this itty bitty string she's wearing.

That's hot! In a sleazy, dirty kinda way. Sometimes a little sleaze is granted...this is such an occasion.

WNBA, YA GOTTA LOVE IT!!!!!!!

2007-09-05T11:13:00.000-07:00

I usually NEVER talk about my Detroit Shock before they have started gm 1 of the play-offs though out to the end; however I will break my rule this once. why? do you ask, Because I'm proud of my team for the way they have played so far. At the end of the regular season they lost a bit of their focus but step by step they found it again(over some terrific teams I may add) They fought hard and played hard. Now it's down to the best in the East and the best in the West. My "Fantasy Hook-Up" a couple of months ago was a Seattle Detroit Finals, two UCONN HUSKIES fighting it out to the end. Instead it's Phoenix and Detroit, but the UCONN thing is still at play. It's going to be a rockin show down and the best players will step up. With my sweaty palms, high anxiety and cramping stomach. I'm going to enjoy every second to the final game clock runs out...May the best team WIN!

Actual Thoughts as I surfed the Web...AGAIN!

2007-09-04T12:33:00.000-07:00

Grey's Anatomy is coming back. I missed this show so freakin much, isn't Meredith cute and her sister was hot in "Not Another Teen Movie". I forget her name though!

Why isn't this PRICK in jail yet?

LOL!! This dude really thinks he's hot.

The real Ken and Barbie and their beautiful children attachments.

Fuck Me! She's hot, good gawd almighty!(biting lower lip while making pervy sounds) The dirty things I could and would gladly do to that ASS!

WHO KNEW?

2007-09-03T07:36:00.000-07:00

I'm sitting here trying to figure out what to say. So much has been going on lately I really don't know where to start or what I feel like sharing. I'll begin slowly, finally got around to seeing Halloween the movie fucking rocked Rob Zombie did an amazing job I especially liked his casting. If you loved his first two films this one kicks those movies ass. Not to spoil anything but if you are also a fan of the other Halloween movies, say 4 and 5 a HUGE surprise casting will blow your mind, it's awesome! I know I sound geeky but I love Gorey monster movies; this one does not disappoint.

I'm thinking about changing jobs; not the career just a different place. The place I'm at now is basically draining my fucking soul. I'm way over it; no matter how much money I make...maybe I'll go into private catering or something. I would rather drive myself crazy over my own business, than anyone Else's.

Did I mention that I might not be single for much longer, yeah, in spite of my attempt at a single life, someone has penetrated my hard skeptical ass and is making me care about someone other than myself, that's saying a lot folks. I mean I am an only child, life has always been about ME ME ME! Now I've met someone who helps me see that there is other people in this world besides myself...who knew?

Almost shelf portrait.

Enjoy your Labor Day!

Friday, Friday, Friday...

2007-08-31T11:20:00.000-07:00

Sorry about the lame title, Tegan and Sara's Monday, Monday ,Monday has been in my head all day. I've been on a T&S overload lately as I explained earlier...annnnnnnyyway it's Friday. I have today off; which causes quiet a dilemma because I can't decide rather to go to the movies, watch my Detroit shock in the play-offs or watch south of no where. Granted the whole TV thing is pretty easy to solve, hello! DVR. But that's not the problem, the problem is if I go to see HALLOWEEN ,I will be thinking about the game the entire time and would end up pissing off the girl I'm with by continuously zoning out during the movie wondering "if Deanna Nolan is on her game or not". I also really want to see this Rob Zombie remake the dude makes sick films and I love it. What to do? what to do? Go out and yell at the screen or stay in and yell at the screen...who am I kidding ,It's Detroit playing in the play-offs. I'm staying in.
I'll go see Halloween before work. Better that than going to sleep right after seeing scary Micheal Myers on the big screen.

Win or lose, I have south of nowhere to console or bring me two times the joy in one night; or three times the joy, if I can get a certain sweetheart to suffer through my madness of a WNBA game and still find me, sexy...did I just list sex last after television? (deep sigh) that's my sickness!

Enjoy your Friday!

Breathing easy on Hump Day!

2007-08-29T06:42:00.000-07:00

How completely awesome is the WNBA? The play-offs so far has been down right heart stopping, with all the close games going down to the last second. My Detroit Shock had me feeling ill the first half; I will not lie, I could not understand why they were playing so sucky(it's a word!) but thank goodness they got it together and kept it together to pull out the win. Now I can breathe easy until Friday when it starts all over again with Indian Fever. I must remember to breathe!

I'm going back to bed...Enjoy your day!

Is It ME or Is Everyone else Crazy!

2007-08-27T09:39:00.000-07:00

So yesterday on my day off; I did nothing but veg out and watched movies all day(and a certain basketball game that I can't talk about...due to being to scared to JINX anything, enough on that!) I caught up on 300( It's okay) Superman Returns(they could've kept that one to themselves.) watched an old favorite Witches Of East wick. Then remembered I picked up the movie Vacancy a couple of days ago(I love anything with Kate Beckinsale in it, I actually own both Underworld movies...save your mocking laughter!) As I Watched the film ,I began to enjoy it, I mean I thought I wouldn't but there I was way into the suspense and action. Then another thought came to me, Why didn't this movie do better in the theater, it really is a good movie. This took my thoughts to other movies that I loved that didn't do well in theaters. Here are five.

1.VACANCY is better than it looks.

2.I've seen this movie so many times it's ridiculous, it picks me up on my bad days.

3.Meg Ryan plays three parts in this and she is adorable, Tom Hanks isn't bad either.

4. I am not a Orlando Bloom or Kirsten Dunst fan but a while back slogreenx was talking this movie up. I saw, fell in love with it, has sense seen it about 4 or five times.

5.This movie is right up my alley, I don't know if I've mentioned this but I love a movie about quirky, crazy, dysfunctional families(don't ask why) It's my favorite thing really. It's right up there with "Home for the Holidays" Jodie foster director. Both movies have that real family drama to it and yet will have you laughing your ass off. Maybe that's why I like Elizabethtown so much it has a touch of that crazy family thing to it!

All of the above movies are quality films, that maybe didn't catch on when it came out but probably did well on DVD. Either way, I caught on to them quickly, am I crazy and alone in loving WEIRD, FUNNY, AWKWARD FILMS that basically crash and burn at the theaters?

Honourable mention D.E.B.S.

I could've use the same old promotion still but decided to go with this one instead...TWO GUESSES WHY!

Another excellent movie with good direction and good acting...WHAT HAPPENED?

Enjoy your Monday!

WEEDS meets THE L WORD!

2007-08-26T15:16:00.000-07:00

Fuuuuuuuuuuuuunnnnnnnnyyyyy!!!!!

Even grad schoolers love Shane...smart kids!
cool,cool stuff. That being said, ahhh Mary Louise..."How you doing?"

FUNK IT ALL!

2007-08-25T06:27:00.000-07:00

I'm in a funk this morning; I watched last nights play-offs game between Detroit and NY...My team lost so badly! I HATE IT and my stomach hurts. the depression will continue until tomorrow when they play again and hopefully WIN. At least I can watch this game live, do or die Detroit...do or die!

Heros, Hotties, The Con and Basketball.

2007-08-24T09:10:00.000-07:00

Kristin Bell(V.Mars herself) will be on one of my favorite shows this fall. How cool is that going to be? can't wait for that, maybe she'll be there to slap cheerleader Claire, when she starts whining!

Speaking of the indestructible Claire, everyone was making such a big deal about Hayden Panettiere turning 18(dirty perves) I don't get it she's still a kid to me. Every time I look at her I see the little girl who played Ally McBeal's daughter that "popped up out of nowhere" on the last season. She is soooo far from being a sexual being. Don't go thinking I'm so high in moral fiber, I was top of the list of pervs waiting for Linsdey Lohan to turn legal, sure I felt a little dirty...I just didn't care!

Alicia Keys is so pretty , she is currently working on her next CD and is saying it's her best work ever(don't they all say that) I read the list of calibrations definitely sounds like she's changing it up a bit and being risky this time around. My guess is it would be her usual genius.

Sooner or Later I'm just gonna have to have sex with her!

The Con
Tegan and Sara's the con is the only CD that I have been listening to for the past week; on the train off, the train to work, at home, hell it even plays while I sleep. I am officially ADDICTED to all of the songs and sing them when I am working. Knife going in- is contagious and my favorite "Nineteen" is so good I couldn't begin to tell you how much I love it...The Con is Tegan and Sara's best, if you haven't heard it go buy it you won' be disappointed.

working to make Nineteen perfect.

my fav performance

BASKETBALL!!!

Last night's game between FEVER and SUN was supposed to be on ESPN2 but the kiddies in the baseball league took over the time. Thank God a VERY GOOD FRIEND, who knows how manic I am during the play-offs recorded it for me over on ESPN CLASSIC. I watched this morning and all I have to say is what a friggin amazing game. Both teams was determined not to lose that first game...BTW, way to go De forge almost won the game for them like five times she was on fire. I love the Indian Fever and is sad that they lost, but they have two more chances. I think they would show up and play even harder Saturday.
Now for my favorite team the DETROIT SHOCK, they play NY a tough team. I Won't say to much about the upcoming game because the thought of it makes me nervous and feel the need to break down each and every play they need to do to win...I'll save you that little DIATRIBE. Seattle and Phoenix will also be playing I love Diana but Sue and Lauren will take them down in 3.

I know this was a long post but I had a lot to get out because I've been to busy to post these last couple of days. BUT I think I got it all out! I THINK!

Please send down WINNING vibes to the Detroit!

ENJOY YOUR FRIDAY!

South Of Nowhere meets Buffy!

2007-08-21T08:03:00.000-07:00

I found this and smiled like the Ginormous dork I am all the way through. My all time favorite show meets my current guilty pleasure.

Brilliant idea; a South Of Nowhere the musical, can they sing? I only heard Mandy season one can the rest do it, Does it really matter though, it didn't stop the Buffy gang from breaking into song. Can you just see Xander and Anya dancing around their apartment and Willow and Tara double entendre laced " under my spell" paying in your head right this second?

I love that episode...I think I'll go watch now!

NEW ASS-- ALERT!!

2007-08-20T12:24:00.000-07:00

Adam Levine is an DICK! Why, do you ask. because of these comments about tennis player Maria Sharapova.

He said, "She wouldn’t make any noise during sex. I can't tell you how disappointed I was. I really thought, like a lot of guys, that she'd be the loud screaming type.
"But instead, she just lay there like a dead frog. She even got angry if I started to moan, said it 'ruined her concentration'."

WTF! This dude is a complete Asshole, first of all to even discuss private moments that are no one else's business...then to put her on blast like that. I'm glad I never liked this guys music I would've been pissed to have been a fan then discovered his huge "PRICKNESS" yeah, I know it's not a word but this guy arrrrggg! I want to fucking punch him in the face. I bet she wasn't making any noise because he..just..wasn't that good, ever think of that PRICKBOY! Maybe you just don't know the ways of how to make a Beautiful 6'2 long legged, championship tennis player, Scream and wail with sexual satisfaction. The little man didn't know what to do with all this.

I'm not even a big Maria sharapova fan, Barely know her.(more of a Williams sisters gal) But when I read that quote it ticked me off. Maybe his CD sales are down and he needs to get back into tabloids I don't know, whatever the case dude, have some respect for someone you had sex with...have some class!

Because I want to.......

2007-08-20T06:09:00.000-07:00

Alyssa Milano is all kinds of HOT!!!

Should I care?

2007-08-17T07:40:00.000-07:00

So I've been reading around the net that Portia De rossi will be guest staring on NIP/TUCK and having a torrid affair with Joely Richardson on the show. There is suppose to be a few very hot scenes between the two.

To be honest I've only watched the season that Rhona Mitra was on

This is another one I forgot to add to my freeby five on slogreenx's blog a while back. Soooooo many hot girls out there, it's difficult to just want five. How about a freeby twenty or fifty, Hell make it a hundred. Wait! I'm getting off topic, back to Portia and joely having hot steamin lesbian sex on the small screen. In my opinion and yes it does count. My opinion is that while I've always thought of Portia as a beautiful woman I've never actually wanted to put her on my freeby five...I Don't see her in a sexual way, Joely Richardson either for that matter. So should I still watch the show when it airs...Hell yeah! it's two good looking chicks gettin it on, Okay It's not say Jessica Biel and Alyssa Milano.

but hey! it's better than Jessica Biel and this ass

Should I care? YES!

It's nice to see an out actress working , it's even better seeing an out actress playing a lesbian. So I will be watching; Thinking in my head the entire time...I wonder how Ellen feels about this? Come on, you know you will be thinking it to!

HAVE A NICE WEEKEND!

Actual Thoughts as I surfed the Web sipping a very large COFFE...PT 2!

2007-08-16T04:58:00.001-07:00

This woman looks good in and next to anything. I'm afraid of horses, but for Angelina I'll get over it!

After seeing Thirteen and Pretty Persuasion I thought Evan Rachel Wood; would be our next great film actress. Then I found out she's dating Marilyn Mansion WTF! wrong path to walk Evan...the dudes career is over, yours is just beginning. Walk away sweetheart!

Miss Heidi is growing on me lately. Not usually my type, but I have to admit I like this AD photo.

Beyonce who? Kelly Rowland is "fire" in that bikini me likey what I see. Keep looking sexy Lady!

Song of the SUMMER!!

2007-08-15T12:39:00.000-07:00

J. Holiday--Bed

I Have been playing this song constantly after hearing it a couple of weeks ago; even made an L Word fanvid with it. It's the kind of song you find yourself singing threw the day...Bangin!

To Post or Not To Post...That is the Question!!

2007-08-14T12:30:00.000-07:00

I've been trying to think of something to blog about all freakin morning and the truth is I have nothing...CAPUTE, I'm empty today! I could talk about work but how many times can I really complain about my co-workers and how the job is exhausting. I could talk about basketball(Go Detroit!!!!) but I'm truthfully saving all my energy for the play- offs...let's see, there's South of nowhere but hell that happened Friday(the kiss was smokin)OH! Okay, the new showtime show Californication was pretty cool...that's all I got today. I know lame post, but you where warned before hand. Hopefully I will become interesting by tomorrow.

I'm out!

This caught my attention big time!!!

2007-08-13T09:32:00.000-07:00

Abigail and Brittany Hensel

Seeing things like this just makes you feel blessed to be who you are, makes you embrace your own differences and like yourself no matter what.

Jenny sounds BITTER!

2007-08-13T05:41:00.000-07:00

Angie says...
"I've never hidden my bisexuality, but since I've been with Brad, there's no longer a place for that or S&M in my life."

Jenny Shumizu says...

"She loves danger and dabbling in the dark side, "Angelina is an unbelievable lesbian lover. That's where she gets her kicks -- not playing happy family with one man," she added "She loves women too much. It's like a drug and she was hooked."

Now does this sound like a- Ticked off woman who got her favorite toy taken away!

I can't say I blame Jenny, Angelina must have been crazy hot in bed, I'd be pissed too if some super famous dude came along and put a stop to all the fun. Something tells me Angelina will back to chicks soon though, like Jenny said Angelina loves women and when you love women(reeeeaaally love women) sooner or later you'er going to have to satisfy the the big giant itch. Take it from someone who denied herself for years before giving in and getting happy...Angelina will have a little something on the side, mark my words!

But, in the mean time she still remains the good little family girl.

have to admit, it's kinda sweet.

Simple and to the Point!

2007-08-10T09:20:00.000-07:00

While not a head by much Hilary Clinton was the strongest in last nights LOGO debates. A night filled with stammering and back talk had it's moments but basically Left me still not able to back a candidate.

Detroit won yeaaaah! loving it, I just wish Seattle would've put up more of a fight. I hate seeing cuter than cute Sue Bird lose that badly.

No work on this Friday, I've had a pretty smooth week with only 4 days, I needed some days to rest my trouble mind(I"m so full shit...I'm just lazy as fuck this week!) I'm on strike from cooking for a 24 hrs, which is easy since I live alone!

South of Nowhere...tonight! I'm so anxious, I feel sort of perverted that am so invested in this teen show. But then I remember growing up, I didn't have a show like this on television. Sure I loved,Beverly hills 90210; but lets face it ,it would have been way more interesting if Kelly and Brenda had been hooking up instead of fighting over the "side burns" that was Dylan McKay! BTW, am I the only one who wanted to help Dylan out and take Kelly off his hands. So I will watch tonight and not judge myself on the matter.

I'm out till tomorrow...I think?

Bush ,Pot and SuperGirl!!!

2007-08-09T07:37:00.000-07:00

Sitting here this morning with my cup o java in one hand and typing with the other; on the television screen, on ABC right now ,is our "beloved pres" attempting to reassure America that we are okay and things will surely work out in the end. He's in the back ground and I'm trying to listen without tossing my coffee at the screen this dude is such an ass my 6 year old cousin has more brains and empathy than he does. I can't wait for the next election to get some one with actual smarts into office. Fuck! this guy does not give a complete answer on one dam thing.
I usually don't discus political issues on my blog, He just caught me of guard with his smug face. Changing subjects, I'm getting to upset looking at this prick speak!

Okay, good news I found the first four episodes of Weeds. The show keeps getting better and Nancy is in deeper and deeper in each episode. There is a certain fight she has with a certain someone that is so freakin funny I re-winded it five times, my stomach is still sore. get ready for a excellent season.

Read over at Popcandy, that the original Supergirl herself will guest star on Smallville as the new supergirl's aunt...how cool is that. I never have been a regular watcher of the show but this is way to cool for me. I had the biggest crush on Helen Slater, I mean have you seen The Legend of Billy Jean, when she cut all her hair off and looked all butch and shit, so hot! I'm definitely putting Smallville on my DVR list, I haven't seen her in anything in ages.

as SuperGirl and Present...Holding up well isn't she.

here she is hot as hell in the movie, Legend of Billy Jean.

I can't wait for Smallville to start. The new super girl is also cute

I'm still a Helen Slater girl though!

enjoy your Thursday!

Oh wait Detroit vs Seattle tonight NBATV...two UCONN HUSKIES going at it, should be a good game.(I of course will be watching it tomorrow. that's the upside with a sport not being SUPER popular...no one spoils the game for me until I see it!)

It's In Her...Smile !

2007-08-08T13:54:00.000-07:00

What exactly made us; millions of lesbians(and Men)fall hard for Miss Sarah Shahi or more to the point the combination of Shane and Carmen aka "Sharmen"? I have my answer...it was the way Carmen smile at Shane, touched Shane, looked at Shane.It was the way Shane smiled at Carmen,touched Carmen , looked at Carmen!

Carmen was sweet and would do absolutely anything for Shane's love and monogamy; That's asking a lot from our little Shane. even though Carmen had her attributes

It's hard to stay faithful when a hot MILF comes around begging for a pool side fucking. But, still it's Carmen. How many of us would give our left ovary to be with Carmen(the right one even) We love Carmen because she brought out the person that Shane will soon be by the series end(whenever that will be!)Shay also helped of course, but this isn't about shay it's about...Sharmen! I remember the first episode when Shane and Carmen got it on, how hot was that. the two actresses looked like a real couple, they acted like a real couple. they put the little things onto the the screen. As I said before, the touching , glances the small nuances that made you say hey! "Maybe something is going on between those two". I couldn't have been the only one looking at the premiere photos closer or attempting to read between the lines of their interviews... or was I? I like Carmen even if she was whiny and a bit snotty at times(but only to MAX, so who really cares.)She pushed Shane to attempt to be loyal. Maybe Sarah Shahi will return and close the final curtain on the dynamic twosome(that damn leaving at the alter bullshit does not count)It happened so abruptly; us die hard fans can't seem to let go of, Sharmen or Sarah Shahi herself.

How adoralble are they?

Actual Thoughts as I surfed the Web sipping a very large COFFE....

2007-08-07T07:04:00.000-07:00

What happened to her? she use to be so pretty...Thank God Kate Moennig is still HOT!

WTF! is Rhianna doing with this chick...Run away fast RHIANNA girls in her circle are going down hard(literally and figuratively)

Why is everyone doing weird SHIT to themselves?

where the hell has this bitch been( Kate Beckinsale)

So What if she's a Scientologist...I'll still do her.( I Told you I'm a sucker for dark hair and light eyes) Catherine Bell is lookin SWEEEEEET!!

Finally; Michele has a star, Angelina Jolie reminds me of her. they both have beautiful hands. I like nice hands.

They both also have adopted Michelle was first of course.
The adopted daughter is definitely gonna be looker.

Sarah Shahi is supposed to be in this movie

Didn't see her in the trailer...soooo not worth it. I'll rather go see this

and lastly and most sadly I went to check and if KC & ELKA had posted a new Podcast that I can listen to on my long train rides to work. ARRRRG! Elka is going to be busy the next month or so and there isn't going to be one for a while(deep sigh of loss)That's okay I have pretty much all old shows on my IPOD...Hopefully that will get me through!

Have a nice Tuesday, I'm going to go make me some, VIDDLES!!

More Sharing from the Sleep Deprived!!

2007-08-03T14:59:00.000-07:00

Got in last night from work and couldn't sleep once again(constant insomnia) never was a good sleeper. I'm to uptight and can't relax(no I haven't sought help. it only happens a couple of times a month) My lousy sleeping problems aside, I wanted to talk about the movie "The Departed" I've heard a lot about it for the past year and I have a WEIRD crush on Leonardo DiCaprio, I wouldn't necessary want to do him I just really like his acting and pretty eyes. Anyway, I finally saw the movie and loved it. All of the actors were point on and even Matt Damon was good and I usually don't like him in anything. Cool movie though.

My Detroit Shock play tonight I have to watch the game tomorrow though(work)I will however send all my winning VIBES their way!
Degrassi on tonight, I already saw all the episodes on YouTube but it's still worth watching...I'm more excited about next Friday when South Of Nowhere returns, Yes!, I'm into Spashley!
Watched the first ep of WEEDS, looks like it will be a good up coming season, Mary Louise Parker is such a fantastic actress...SHE ROCKS ON THE SHOW!!

Okay time to go, Sorry about the Babbling,

Diving back Into Murky Waters.....MAYBE?

2007-08-02T11:24:00.000-07:00

Interesting Thursday my friends...why? do you ask, well my cousin wants to fix me up with one of her friends/co-workers. If it was one of my more reliable and not crazy relatives I'll be kind of game for the hook-up(maybe!) But this is my wild child, club hopping, weed smoking, misdemeanor cousins. I'm understandably nervous(especially since I just broke up with some one who is...INSANE!! I promise I am not Shittin you!

Read my earlier RANTS to see why------

YEH! I'm a liiiiiitttle gun shy on finding new love, or maybe I'm just not ready for anything substantial. I like working late and not have some one BITCH to me about it. I'm at a very "about me" stage in my life right now...a fix up would not be good. I get horny but, not enough to have to answer to anyone...at least not anytime soon. Would I be a slut to just have a friend with benefits, is it possible for Lesbians to be just friends with benefits? I don't know, I've never had meaningless sex. I've always enjoyed a good loving relationships, I'm just a bit burned out now. Who knows maybe I should go out on the Damned date, However I reeeeaally would not want to waist the girls and mine's time when I'm obliviously not into it.
The answer is....NO DATE!! I would like to remain drama free for a little bit longer.

Steamy Dreams...

2007-08-01T12:49:00.000-07:00

Maybe it's because I've basically been sexless for the past few months(serious kissing session with exes not counting) or maybe it was the cold beer before falling a sleep I don't know. I just know that last night I had the Steamiest Dream about Angelina Jolie, it was a good one and yes, handcuffs were involved. I woke up very disappointed and sweaty...very sweaty. Something is trying to tell me - to much work, is making me boring and that I need to go get "some".

Keep It In Your Pants !

2007-07-31T08:10:00.000-07:00

So I work as a chef in a restaurant, I'm also very much in charge of the inner and outer workings for the dinner shift(sometimes breakfast and lunch) My co-workers and I have to be able to work as a cohesive team to get the food out properly and timely. Now here is my delima, tWo of my people have decided that they are into each other and want to start dating(Big FUCKING sigh) this could turn into a problem both are way off in being compatible, their young and childish and once the break-up comes, my life is pretty much fucked! It's not good to have animosity in that kind environment,Especially when it's already a tense place to work as it is.
My question is, is it my place to tell them to cool it and not date each other? I have a very large EGO but, hey, I take my profession serious and do not take lightly that some one could possibly hamper that in anyway. Am I being SELFISH?

Weeds, Heidi and Beowulf.

2007-07-27T14:27:00.000-07:00

These are the few things that caught my attention this Week...

1. Kids playing in the water hydrant(I use to do that...it was fun!)

2. My little kitten trying to catch her tail and finally giving up to sit and lick herself in the corner.

3. AN EXTREMELY! hot girl on the EL, she kept eyeing me ,but Nothing happened. I Just got off on the next stop...it was past midnight I was to exhausted to get my freak on!

4. A strange guy standing on the corner near where I work, talking to himself. I thought that he looked like someone I went to elementary school with, This caused me to stare, then quickly move away when we locked eyes and I realized he soooo was not the guy I went to school with.

5. These three things....

This picture reminds me of why I love Mary Louise Parker...She's also a great actress!

I've never really been that into Heidi Klum, but hey, if a woman can have two kids and still be this hot after such a short amount of time deserves all "Props".

Beowulf--is the movie and Angelina animated is still sexier than most "real" ladies. The trailer looks NICE!!

Have a good Friday FOLKS...You can't see me but I'm making the Peace Sign!

Thursday...

2007-07-26T14:48:00.000-07:00

It's Thursday and I have exactly 42 minutes to kill before I have to run off to my big successful job(I'm so freakin important) I haven't Blogged much lately because one, I'm suddenly very busy and second, I just don't know what the hell to talk about. The l Word is off season and there hasn't been any new news that I know of. Heroes and Lost is off, not that I have really been talking about them much I just miss the shows. I hate summer television it sucks ass(with the exception of The closer and Curl Girls.)I've gone to see every thing that I wanted to in the Theater so far...although I can't wait for the Halloween remake. Basketball and tennis has been keeping me happy, only WNBA now that WIMBLEDON is over(CONGRATS VENUS!)
What do you know didn't even use the entire 42 minutes, I TOLD YOU I HAD NOTHING TO TALK ABOUT....

Thanks to those who actually read my weird ramblings

HALLA----

WTF? LINDSEY!!!!!

2007-07-24T06:49:00.000-07:00

I gave this girl the benefit of the doubt, I thought she was getting her self together and finally able to work through her issues...but NO! Lindsey is fucking herself over badly. DRUGS are bad people, it leads you down a very terrible path. I hope that she "seriously" goes to REHAB. There is nothing I hate more than when talented people screw them selves over because of drugs and alcohol, get A grip Linds, you're about to be....OVER!

Should Be A Bigger Star !

2007-07-23T04:54:00.000-07:00

As I said when I first began SBABS, it's not as superficial as it sounds. I'm not saying who should be photographed more or who the paparazzi should chase more. I mean who has the...Meat! Who has the talent and who deserves the accolades for their brilliance for actually doing something skillfully; Now, that said. this weeks SBABS IS Tegan and Sara! I'm not a music critic or anything but I know what I like. I first got into them about 6 or 7 months ago and found myself needing to find more music from them. Their style was a little different earlier and changed and became even better starting with "So Jealous". The new one "The Con" is a continuation of that style. It's a good CD and if you're a fan you will enjoy it, if you aren't a fan check it out anyway these women are the real deal and I think it's time for some Grammy nominations to come Tegan and Sara's way!

I love this song!

here they work on their current CD, The Con

TGIF!

2007-07-20T14:39:00.000-07:00

It's been a long week filled with work work and more work. I have the weekend off(maybe) so I'm going to catch up on all the movies I've been wanting to see at the top of the list is

HAIRSPRAY, I loved the original but I will give this one a chance.

second...Chuck and Larry I like Adam Sandler and kevin James is a- big ole teddy bear.

It's appears funny enough and I completly worship Jessica Beil...and her ASS!

here is her shaking that money maker on Ellen.

My Made Videos.......

2007-07-19T06:33:00.001-07:00

I will be gone for the rest of the day. I hope you enjoy these videos I made of KATE.